PHILOSOTRY - INFERNO


If reality ever gave me the gift of seeing you 
only life curses me for making me 
live in a dream where I fall for you. 
I have become heart proof. 
I was afraid 
of the tears I kept hiding from myself
in order to not see 
what felt seemed to be less than 
what anything could ever be. 
It is her unescapable condition; 
Finding freedom in the heart of men. 
I've held the red against the pain 
and the black besides the shame.
But i was wrong.
For red runs with life 
and black can be as clear as white. 
So claim me as your own,
for I am guilty of nothing 
and that shall always be my biggest sin.
Claim me as your own 
and let me be the black stars of this dream -
if thats what I am. 
Where I can spend eternity 
staring through a world of my own -
calling out for something trivial 
that I could call my perfect imperfection. 
This is for you - the one I never knew. 
May this letter find you in a place 
in which reality is nothing but a fantasy 
where I spend eternity falling for you 
as time forgets how to love itself. 
But for now, just hold me like lovers do
as I fall asleep -
to be the star that holds the night 
when you set on me. 

LADDER TO THE SKY


I always liked trees.
There is something in the way they dance to the wind.
Something in the way they color my mind in the summer
and shape my soul on cold winter days.
I remember feeling mesmerized by how big they were –
like a ladder to the sky.
I was the boy sitting on the bottom of that ladder.
But I never climbed it – the sky felt so lonely -
I left it untouched so that he could come down and play with me.
I sat on the bottom of the biggest tree...and waited.
When he was sad he would sing to me,
Washing his tears on the same leafs that fall for his smile.

FADED MEMORIES / EPILOGUE


In the arms of courage, I bleed. 
In the heart of sorrow, I crow. 
This day I am what I am -
to your eyes, my eyes of you. 

Don't say you love me,
for I may never find a way
to be what I am 
in your eyes, my eyes of you. 

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Walking down the stairs 
in the arms of angels, 
I came to death. 
As it poured out of him like a breath. 
You can tell me what is wrong,
what I could have done
when he told me "my dear, I'm going" 
as his eyes poured like rain. 
I tried. I tried to linger his fear
but there was nothing to come home for. 

So just hold me like lovers do. 
They cry for love, 
I cry for you. 

TIME FORGETS


I know your love ain't mine no more. 
I'll keep you in a dream 
until your skin shades my eyes 
and sets me free. 

Will I ever stay awake 
and dream by your side? 
Will I ever be the one to vanish 
time from your life? 

You taught me how to love
now show me how to forget. 
For I will fall asleep 
as time forgets itself. 

I would steal the seconds I lost 
and make them real. 
Breathe in the hours time chased
in the minutes I gave away. 
Have I ever told you 
I loved you right from the start? 
That I'd sell my soul to the devil 
so you could take my heart. 

You taught me how to love 
now show me how to forget. 
For I will fall asleep 
as time forgets itself. 

UNTITLED


I closed every door
so your love could climb from the window. 
Chased every heart 
but the one I had missing. 
I fled to a place 
where I was left alone, 
with the pieces of my heart 
waiting for you to call them your own. 

JUPITER ABOVE OUR DREAMS


You talk about heaven 
and how the world is so cruel, 
but does "I love you" mean the same to you 
if no one says "me too"? 
Whose to carry your hopes 
and get lost in your fears as Jupiter shines above our dreams. 

I will carry your hopes until time forgets me
and swear to your love like a cliché movie scene - 
Dancing in the rain, like we saw in that advertise 
where the story never ends and we're stuck in time. 

Now you're dancing in the dark 
shining over my head. 
The angels got you now, 
and I still here on our bed. 

GIMME LOVE, GIMME PAIN


Sometimes I wish i could be born again 
so I could fall in love 
and do it all over again. 
It gets me so wild. 
Sometimes I wish i could pretend to love somebody
but I can't, 
because I miss you too much 
everyday. 

I AM AFRAID


I am afraid 
the eyes I used for so long 
to withdraw the fantasy I poisoned myself with 
would judge me for the reality I created 
to find a purpose in the curse 
I was convinced to be just being. 
I am afraid 
of the tears I keep hiding from myself 
in order not to see 
what felt seems like less 
then what everything can be. 
I am afraid of the soul I inhabit;
I am afraid of how much I love to save her.